I'm going home

After a long journey, both literally and figuratively, physically and emotionally, I'm starting my journey back to the city that I love so much. Through the course of my travels, I was constantly asked many questions about DC and why I love it so. Well, what can you say about a city like DC? It's a great mix of north and south, it's a city that has an international flair while still being very American, it's a good mix of public and private transportation, it's a picturesque city and a city of change. As winter fades and spring begins, I'm coming home to start my new season of life. The cherry blossoms are out and the tourists are sure to be flooding the National Mall and I'm actually looking forward to what life has to offer me.

It's taken a few months to get to a better place, but I'm slowly working my way towards that better place. True, my heart is still heavy and I will carry that heaviness for the rest of my life, but eventually it will all work out how it's supposed to work out. There's a balance to life and eventually, the bad times will turn to good. You must experience the dark to appreciate the light.

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The Best I Ever Had

Listening to more country music and this time it's Gary Allen and a beautiful song:

So you sailed awayInto a grey sky morning
Now I'm here to stay
Love can be so boring
And nothing's quite the same now
I just say your name now

But I'ts not so bad..
You're only the best I ever had
You don't want me back
You're just the best I ever had

So you stole my world
Now I'm just a phony
Remembering the girl
Leaves me down and lonely
We'll send it in a letter
Make yourself feel better

But I'ts not so bad..
You're only the best I ever had
You don't want me back
You're just the best I ever had

And it might take some time
To patch me up inside
But I cant take it so I
I run away and hideI might find it in time
That you were always right
You were always right

So you sailed away
Into a grey sky morning
Now I'm here to stay
Love can be so boring
Was it what you wanted
Could it be I'm haunted?

But It's not so bad..
You're only the best I ever had
You dont want me back
You're just the best I ever had

The 'Real World'?

I'm sure that all traveller's who are on the road for a long time experience what I'm going through. And, I'm pretty sure that what I'm feeling right now is nothing special, but still, it's causing some unrest these days. I'm a bit distant in conversations and people are starting to notice. What can I say? Something is on my mind.

After spending an amazing month out in Arizona and the great Southwest, I'm catching a red-eye flight back to the east coast. Is the dream life coming to a close? Should I get an apartment and a job and slip back into the 9am-5pm reality that's almost expected of me? Or should I throw it all in storage and keep on moving down the road with the few possessions that I have in my bag and create more memories? What is the 'real world' after all? What is success? Is it going to work, buying a home, building a family? Or is it building memories and friendships while trying to see it all? Don't most people on their death bed wish that they had seen more of this world?

I guess it's true, the hardest thing in this world is to have a choice........and these are the questions that face me now at this junction in my life.

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